unending ropes (remembered) how they can stay faithful
is beyond me, that is,
how could i have hoped
when they're same like me -
stained, a little broken,
a little hardened, a little
forgetful. ...

for it's much, much easier
to forget You, to
pick and choose
which parts are true
and which parts i insist
real. for it's much,
much simpler to pretend
i can be whole
with one of this,
some of that,
all just so i can last
at least for the next few hours
... just for the next few hours.

there's an impasse between us now,
and i recognize nothing around me
but the old roundabout emptiness
incomparable, except,
perhaps, to the unrelenting,
unending, matchless magnificence
of You.

but wait -
there are no coincidences
so i wonder what lesson
You've planned
for me this time.

whatever it is
i hope that i learn it
at least,
at the very least
in the way
that only
You
and
I
know
about.   ¶ 6/25/2004 03:25:00 AM