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anna's pad
kagagaling ko lang sa highrise apartment ni anna. 45th floor on kinzie and lasalle - grabe! napawi akong mga salita. ahahaha. ganyan ka-ganda ng mundo from her vantage point. yung office ko 25th floor lang, overlooking the flat, boring, infinite west side and the river. kung tatalon ka galing sa office ko, the flight'll be too short and you splash unceremoniously into the chicago river, like a charred dead duck.
but from her apartment... you need fly off the banister and soar further first like a paper airplane aboard wind before you smoothly land on the chicago river. ahahahaha. ka-eye level mo yung buildings. ang ganda-ganda. i can't get it out of my mind. i've found something new to obssess over, and at more than $1,000 a month, anna says it is doable... and it will be my own space... and it will be in chicago, less insane than new york with breathing room to boot... cleaner... with buildings, the lake, the river... shimmering... i can have peace and quiet and the whole night to write... what the hell's stopping me?
gold yung kulay ng street lights. they line up like glass markers. the streets are never devoid of cars. you can talk all you want on the balcony because the walls are so thick and the glass so soundproof and the room so high that no one can see or hear you. you can sleep with the windows open and the balcony door ajar because no one will shimmy up and rob you. anna left the doorjamb open to keep her front door from closing, just like you do a hotel room, because you won't be gone for very long, you'll come back to lock your door later. you can furnish the place with trendy ikea stuff - the glass box in the sky seemed built just for things ikea, anyway. you don't need two rooms, just one.
damn. my life's so grown that i feel comfortable living on my own? that i need that much space on my own? because i thought things like that would be really lonely. i won't need a pet up there, i think. i'd have the other skyscrapers every night for company - they never sleep. and there'll always be people over, friends or family. and i can be online all day, all week.
ah. but that's one negatory - anna said internet in her building sucks. wireless is way too expensive, especially if i were to committ an entire paycheck and a quarter to just rent. cable i might be able to do without, especially if there's unlimited rentals at blockbuster. but i would need my internet, ahahaha.
look at this. planning a dream already. moving to that highrise would mean my sacrificing my wanderlust. it'd mean loosing the car, too, ahaha, and the credit card and the fancy everything else like movies and books and clothes and food. it might mean cancelling cell phone privileges.
but for just a year? contracts go by years, i think. what's one year? a snap. i won't have time to enjoy it. but i think it will be enough, if all i did within that year is work to pay for the apartment, go to the one class, and have friends over. it'd be too depressing if i do it some time in my 30s, ahaha. gotta be soon... ahahahaha. scary!
and a bit sad: leaving my mother's house for the first time. sinong matitira dito sa amin? pero gusto rin naman ni mom. she always finds ways to get what she wants. that's one thing na baka mangyari sa akin - she move in with me. which will ruin the whole thing! grrr.
ok. these are just thoughts. if i do somehow make them come true, i'll definitely blog about it. next time i visit anna's pad, i'll bring my camera and post it. :-) ¶ 9/22/2004 02:18:00 AM
but from her apartment... you need fly off the banister and soar further first like a paper airplane aboard wind before you smoothly land on the chicago river. ahahahaha. ka-eye level mo yung buildings. ang ganda-ganda. i can't get it out of my mind. i've found something new to obssess over, and at more than $1,000 a month, anna says it is doable... and it will be my own space... and it will be in chicago, less insane than new york with breathing room to boot... cleaner... with buildings, the lake, the river... shimmering... i can have peace and quiet and the whole night to write... what the hell's stopping me?
gold yung kulay ng street lights. they line up like glass markers. the streets are never devoid of cars. you can talk all you want on the balcony because the walls are so thick and the glass so soundproof and the room so high that no one can see or hear you. you can sleep with the windows open and the balcony door ajar because no one will shimmy up and rob you. anna left the doorjamb open to keep her front door from closing, just like you do a hotel room, because you won't be gone for very long, you'll come back to lock your door later. you can furnish the place with trendy ikea stuff - the glass box in the sky seemed built just for things ikea, anyway. you don't need two rooms, just one.
damn. my life's so grown that i feel comfortable living on my own? that i need that much space on my own? because i thought things like that would be really lonely. i won't need a pet up there, i think. i'd have the other skyscrapers every night for company - they never sleep. and there'll always be people over, friends or family. and i can be online all day, all week.
ah. but that's one negatory - anna said internet in her building sucks. wireless is way too expensive, especially if i were to committ an entire paycheck and a quarter to just rent. cable i might be able to do without, especially if there's unlimited rentals at blockbuster. but i would need my internet, ahahaha.
look at this. planning a dream already. moving to that highrise would mean my sacrificing my wanderlust. it'd mean loosing the car, too, ahaha, and the credit card and the fancy everything else like movies and books and clothes and food. it might mean cancelling cell phone privileges.
but for just a year? contracts go by years, i think. what's one year? a snap. i won't have time to enjoy it. but i think it will be enough, if all i did within that year is work to pay for the apartment, go to the one class, and have friends over. it'd be too depressing if i do it some time in my 30s, ahaha. gotta be soon... ahahahaha. scary!
and a bit sad: leaving my mother's house for the first time. sinong matitira dito sa amin? pero gusto rin naman ni mom. she always finds ways to get what she wants. that's one thing na baka mangyari sa akin - she move in with me. which will ruin the whole thing! grrr.
ok. these are just thoughts. if i do somehow make them come true, i'll definitely blog about it. next time i visit anna's pad, i'll bring my camera and post it. :-) ¶ 9/22/2004 02:18:00 AM
