popcorn friends on the way this week and last shall henceforth be known as "popcorn friends week:" friends i had not seen in years suddenly pop out of city firmament and cement.

the first is a musician from my wright college days. i found him waiting at the blue line belmont tracks. he did a little dance with his feet while sitting down when i didn't recognize him. "iggy. rachel's brother," he said. i didn't know i knew someone named rachel. i had to dig way, way back, and i'm glad i remembered, but i'm not sure if i want to go that far back in my life, ahaha.

and then i remembered every secret and embarrassment rachel and i shared. i remembered every horrible secret i formed on my own while i was friends with rachel! i gave iggy my card, and i'm not sure if he checks my blogs, ahaha.

the other two came today - a brother and sister team, naome and emanuel, from my UP college of music days. i wonder how in the world they found me. it was just bizarre, ahaha. they emailed me out of the blue - using an email address I AM SURE i never gave them. i wonder how in the world they found that email address. it's kinna freaky.

in the past when i became friends with people i didn't really care for, i've had troubles ahead. it was very hurtful, because i never want to come across as fake.

there are people i'd like to contact now, but again, the trust issue - i have trust issues all around. i should learn to discriminate between using trust on people i care about and people i work with or for. that's one issue i have to work on, for sure.

everyone has trust issues. i just don't want to be the butt of one of them.  ¶ 8/02/2005 11:13:00 PM